A lot of people ask me how/why I am the way I am, as if it were a potentially simple explanation. I’m not exactly complex, but I’m also not simple either. Many things had to happen for me to be me. Let me rattle off a few
1. My Family – Anyone who knows me knows me immediate family is completely fucking ridiculous. But most people do not know my extended family because I’m not from here, I’m an import. More specifically the Eckert side of my family. We are a clan of well balanced maniacs, for the most part anyway. If it’s on someones mind they’re saying. My grandma has absolutely no filter. This is where I get my brutal honest from.
2. Moving When I Was 14 – Now for an adolescent moving is never easy. But moving to P’burg was like moving to a foreign land. Ya’ll are some country ass motherfuckers. My introduction into Phillipsburg came before the great ghetto migration when everyone from the city started moving here because it was cheap. All I saw was NASCAR shirts and flannel. Needless to say I did not fit in initially. I had to deal with a lot of dumb redneck assholes talking shit because they are, for lack of a better term, fucking retards. This is when I developed the ability to think quickly and rain down insults like I am trying to drown you.
3. Selling Drugs – I always had some kind of a hustle. Whether it was stealing candy boxes from the Ag Shop in high school and selling them two for one or selling cigarettes for a dollar a piece and I didn’t smoke. But as I got older hustling took on a darker tone. After cashing a huge overtime check I picked up an ounce of weed and not even knowing that many people I figured it’d last me about 5 days. It was gone in 6 hours. I was hooked. Ounces went to pounds within 4 months. I had 5+ people working for me. Spending 3 grand in a weekend didn’t matter because we could make it back in two days. This is when I learned the art of the hustle and how, with a little brains, the sky is the limit.
4. Weed – I love mary jane. This is no secret. Even though selling it fucked my life up for the better part of 5 years, smoking it hands down changed it for the better. It opened my mind. Not in a weirdo hippy way, but in an inquisitive way. It made me always want to know what made people tick and why they do the shit they do. It made me laugh harder then I’ve ever laughed in my life, several times. It brought out the funny outrageous motherfucker I love being and took away the angry jerkoff I hated being. This is when I realized being the way I want to be is much better then being the way everyone else thinks I should be.
5. Prison – Prison made me a man. It showed me real quick how little your government, local or federal, really gives a shit about you. They made me an offer. Snitch and you get probation, plead guilty and give up your car and get 3 years, keep your car and get 5 years . Where I’m from, that’s extortion. But they call it justice. Snitching wasn’t an option, I definitely did that shit so a trial wasn’t an option and I didn’t really give a fuck about that car, so 3 years it was. Not a serious amount of time but I would soon find out 1 day in jail is too many days in jail. I didn’t have many problems because I naturally get along with everybody, minded my own fucking business and I’m 6 foot 220 lbs so I’m not what they would consider an easy target. Shit went down, but some shit had to go down. More importantly I no longer was Nick Eckert. I was 722872D. That’s all you are, a number in a jump suit who they fed like shit and treated even shittier. Administration was more fucked up than any inmate could be. They take away your humanity and throw you into a wolves den, where you are either a wolf or food. This turned me into an emotionless person who thought only of survival. This is what made me ruthless.
6. Women – If you read my posts, you clearly know I know what I’m talking about when it comes to women. But I was not born with this knowledge. It has been obtained by observing actions and having some of the most outrageously fucked up relationships you could imagine. Women taught me how to be evil. Women showed me when it comes to another persons feelings that if they don’t line up with what they want then they, in fact, do not matter. So I needed weapons. The only way to beat a woman is to understand her and fuck her like you hate her. So I made it a point to excell in bed and in conversation. A woman will tell you everything you need to know about her , all you need to do is ask the right questions. But we all have that ONE GIRL, who has you acting fuckin’ crazy. Like showing up at her moms house in your jammies and runnin from the front door to the back door screaming for “this to bitch to get her lyin skank ass the fuck out here”. True story. This bitch fucked me up but good. No matter how nice I was to her she treated me like a total asshole, and I took it because I “loved” her. But one can only take so much and eventually I ended it, but little did I know it was just the beginning. Needless to say it didn’t get any better. I can honestly say, if I didn’t punch this bitch in the face then I’ll NEVER hit a female. Women taught me how to be heartless. But one in particular, who is currently in the lead position to be the queen of F.A.T. Entertainment, taught me true happiness. So ultimately this is when I learned to not give a fuck, because whatever is going to happen is going to happen, so you might is well enjoy the ride and know when to bail out and know when to strap in for the long haul. or else life just sucks and then you die.